Anchor that held me
Has left the sea floor
Not sure where it went
Isn’t there any more
Swaying and bobbing
The ocean has taken
I look to the captain
But he has forsaken
Swept with the tides
No harbor in sight
Just miss the rocks
Lost to great fright
Then I remembered
Was of my own choice
I must let it all go
Have my own voice
Taking the controls
My vessel, my own
Direction of choosing
Even though all alone
No longer I’m pulled
No longer you steer
No longer I’m anchored
No longer I’ll fear
©Fear Anchors by SBDMB (MM)
Image by Pixaby
“Unlike a fountain that circulates the same water in an enclosed, perpetually recycling system, a human being circulates thoughts in an unlimited reservoir of self. Don’t limit yourself to being a mere fountain when you contain an ocean.”~Vera Nazarian
Cee’s Black & White Photo Challenge: Made by Human Beings
©Flowing Fountain by SBDMB (MM)
I was contemplating what a good piece would be for today, and came up empty. Really, like feeling a bit dry, running on low. I feel the need to keep it real here. It is important and also encourages others who struggle, as I do, to do the same. My life and emotions are just zapping me these days. I have a bit going on in the personal baggage department. And, then of course the holidays and all those mixed feelings, as I shared here. Shorter, cooler days and less sun also aid in my depression and insomnia flare ups.
So what do you do when things just get too overwhelming? Or like myself you find you’re running on empty?
Well, I have found that blogging has been a great therapy for me. But, it’s not always a place I can freely flow with every thought. So, finding a creative outlet elsewhere has been key for me too, over the years. Drawing and music are valuable to me. I can sit for hours just putting pencil to paper and playing a collection of eclectic artists. I go from heavy medal and hard rock all the way to piano music. With my creative flow it takes on a personality of its own. I will figure out as I go, as the music moves me. Sometimes it’s interesting what comes out at the end, often quite based on my musical connections.(Be sure to see my drawing below.)
Last, I cannot express how much finding kindred souls has helped! Through blogging I have found many that connect with me on different levels of understanding and empathy. Those that touch base with me daily and extend words of kindness to me. Going perhaps on just a vibe from an emotional piece I’ve written. These I cannot treasure enough. It is salve to the soul to have these connections.
Empathy is a beautiful and refreshing quality, but can also be abused by others. As an empath, I find myself at times drained. The world likes to siphon strength from me, down to my heart and soul, until nothing but my shell remains. The arts, writing, music and blogging- these are the fuel that I must use to refill and empower myself. It does take time and effort, but I do know that this too shall pass.
I cannot emphasize enough how much it means to me when you leave a comment, even just a “hello” brightens my day. So, thank you!
The below came of listening to Poison’s “Every Rose Has A Thorn” and Bon Jovi’s “Bad Medicine”🙂
©Every Rose by SBDMB (MM)
I’m quite obsessed about lines and the perfection of things being straight. Those who know me well, know that I get a bit OCD even. This view always tickles me because it’s nearly perfect. I hope you enjoy this local snap shot as much as I do. ~SBDMB (MM)
In response to Cee’s Which Way Photo Challenge
©Straight Lines by SBDMB (MM)
My body can’t bare the weight
World closing in and I suffocate
Bitterness and anger meet here
Blackness fills, until I disappear
All I need is one more breathe
Just give it to me so I can live
Captured, you hold me bound
Used up, cast on the ground
You refuse to hear all my outcries
Emotionless, believe your own lies
I needed you and you turn away
Unable to make you want to stay
Trust what you want about a soul
But mine is under your control
You keep me locked away, lonely
Tell me I will always be your only
Lies, all lies to keep me enslaved
When I just wanted to be saved
That is pain you see in my eyes
I refuse to wear your disguise
Bitterness you are just so cruel
Stubborn as a big damn mule
Is this all just a foolish game?
To keep me stuck in your pain
Bitterness, Silent Killer© by SBDMB (MM)
These hands were made to love you
Touch down deep into you soul
To carry your burdens for you
When you’re feeling so low
These eyes were made to love you
Looking into your heart’s depths
Seeing you for who you truly are
And guiding you however far
These lips were made to love you
Speak with healing words of care
Whispering how much they long
Perhaps even doing so in song
This body was made to love you
Until its final breathe is done
And when I say, “I love you”
Know you’re the only one.
I would die for you…give my life.©
Cee’s Share Your World
What do you value most in a friendship? Honesty, straight out be real, no wishy-washy crap, drama-free and tolerance for my outspoken personality and sarcastic humor😉 Haha, I could keep going…can you tell I’ve been burned? By the closest, longest standing friendship I’d ever had. So, now I am very particular about who I let into my inner circle, EVER!
Do you prefer eating the frosting of the cake or the cupcake first? Do you prefer a specific flavor? I like to take the bottom off and put it on top of the frosting and sandwich it. Although I do like to lick it off too, if I’m being good or bad…whichever you want to call that😉 My favorite flavor is Red Velvet with cream cheese frosting. Followed up closely by all chocolate.
Have you ever been in a submarine? If you haven’t, would you want to? No, but, in the bottom of a WW 2 battleship. Does that count? Close? It was very close quarters and I did get a touch claustrophobic by the end. So, no a sub is not a desire, as I imagine it would be even tighter.
If 100 people your age were chosen at random, how many do you think you’d find leading a more satisfying life than yours? This is a hard one. I try not to compare myself to others life. I am really happy overall and couldn’t say otherwise.
Optional Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Got the house all ready for Christmas- tree, decorations and fun with the family, while doing so.