Need Help! Displaced by Hurricane Florence

Life keeps throwing curve balls! The last six months have been the most difficult in my life due to losing my son to suicide and all the pain that comes with that. But NOW, I have been displaced by Hurricane Florence. As we live only two blocks from the beach, in Myrtle Beach, we are in a mandatory evacuation zone.  We weren’t prepared financially to leave (I just got off disability, due to my son’s death). Now we aren’t able to get home because we have to drive through NC to do so. We have no idea what we are going to do! Not being able to work and no savings- we are living off the generosity of anyone willing to help.

If you would like to help me I have a Go Fund Me page.

https://www.gofundme.com/63wrn4w?pc=ot_co_dashboard_a&rcid=841aa492bd044f77b73c38133c65f6eaB92120BC-1E95-4D38-B1C6-D6CC898511B7.jpeg

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Lost In A Circle

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Inhale, exhale and then do it again
Numb me, take me to a happier place
I wander in the darkness, bring me light
But, all you do is bring me deeper into night

Lost in a circle, yet it feels like a maze
When I think I’m at the end I start again
Push and pull, up and down, just one more
All I seem to do is live for the moments I soar©

by Mac

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Broken Things

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Fallen to pieces, you’re broken

Heart given all that it could

But your beauty is unspoken

Perhaps even misunderstood

 

So I pick up all that is shattered

Molding you into a work of art

Proving to you that you’ve mattered

Precious gold flows from my heart

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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My Heart

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My breath catches, my heart flutters

I can’t breathe, my brain utters…

”Go forward, find peace, move on!”

But I can’t, because you are gone

It is so final and I so incomplete

I am a shell, my heart can’t beat

I would curse God, but I know

In my heart, I know, you had to go

by Mac

 

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When Suicide Knocked

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Suicide knocked three times, on the fourth knock it took you. It has been over four months that I have lived without you; it is unbearable. Is it really living when part of my heart is gone? I’m not sure. Perhaps it is only surviving from one minute to the next, one breath to the next. I must force my lungs to to inhale, my heart to beat and my feet to take step after step. How will I go on? I guess I will continue to learn. Whoever said, “It gets easier with time” was a damn lier. [It] gets harder everyday!

by Mac

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Happiness Is

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happiness is not found in one

happiness is not found in a thing

happiness is not what makes the world

happiness is not what makes me sing

happiness is only for the lucky few

happiness is only when I’m dreaming

happiness is such a fleeting memory

happiness is just for those living

daily I put on my mask of happiness

by Mac

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The Sun

My heart may be broken, but I will not let it bring me to my knees
I will stand with my feet firmly planted and hands to the sky
Let the sun kiss my face and wind playfully tickle my skin
Dreaming of the lovely day we are together once again©

by Mac

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