My brain is such a confusing space. I have times where the thoughts flow, unencumbered by the world around me. I can be sitting in the midst of pure confusion and they seep from my fingers onto the keys. Then, there are the moments when [they] are held captive. As though my mind dominates and leaves words bound on the tip of my tongue.
A frustration for every writer, I can imagine, these elusive words. Having a dictionary of definitions available to me and yet unable to construct. Perhaps it is sorrow or pain which holds me back. Emotions and Composers have such an intricate relationship. One that can be fractured by the smallest of cracks. I do find that thee artistic side of my brain feels more free when I am in a happy or in a contented place. Is it endorphins, perhaps, giving my brain the release it so desires? Or, am I prepared to relinquish control in this state of euphoria?
Most irritating though is when words wish to come to me in my sleep. Pouring in with such vigor, at times waking me from deep slumber. Not as dreams, but as concepts and ideas, which cannot be silenced or snuffed out by the dark! I can try to ignore them and hope they let me rest in peace. But, as if defying me, I am plagued then by insomnia. And, if I have success, the words and ideas from the night will have vacated my mind by dawn. Leaving me to feel as though a great chasm exists between my mind and my keyboard. Moving me towards a feeling of incompletion.
I can relate. Best ideas come at night, chasing each other while I am left calculating how long I get to sleep if I sleep at that moment.😴
Yes, exactly 😳
You have wonderfully captured the writer’s life. It happens to all of us I guess. But, I feel that these experiences add that surprise element in the creative journey. 🙂
Thank you! And yes, I agree. I also find I appreciate the highs more because of the lows. Thanks for reading 🙂
You’re welcome. At least we make good use of sleep deprivation and let the mind wander to look for ideas. 🙂
So true 🙂
Good stuff 🙂 I had forgotten about discover this week because when it was read to me I couldn’t really think of anything but you’ve covered it really well. For me I spent an hour last night trying to find the words for an attempted murder scene in my novel. I knew what was going to happen but I need to figure out how to make the scene believable and I just couldn’t get all the words around the scene right. In the end it kind of worked, but I’ll re-read it this morning.
Thanks 🙂 oh good, I hate when I get stuck too! I’ve been working on another poem this afternoon to go with a piece of art I recently did 😉
I like your art, I missed out on my calling as an artist, I wanted to to happen but it never did and I somehow ended up in digital art.
Oh man! I love art- it’s my first passion. Sitting with headphones on for hours and drawing is my therapy- along with blogging and other such 😉
When I was a kid I loved sign writing, so much so I wanted to be a sign writer until I realised that even 30 years ago it was all stencils and tracing, so I went back to reproducing band logos and then on to digital art.
That’s amazing though. My daughter wants to get do art in some for as an adult. She’s already surpassed me in ability at 13. She’s self taught and blows me away 🙂
I was always pretty crap at scenery and people just good with writing so my kids surpassed me ages ago 🙂
Having seen some of yours though I reckon your daughter must be a great artist.
Haha! 😛 Yes, she is amazing. And thank you, so nice of you to say 😉
My cousins wife is an artist and I understand none of what she does 🙂
I can totally relate – I usually type ideas into my phone – they come at all hours and sometimes keep me awake too – maybe it’s the restless Gemini brain? 😉
I do that too! Great minds… must all be a Gemini thing 😉