Life is just one big mystery to me at times. Questions so often looming in my mind. Choices made, how they will effect myself or my family. There are just so many things in this world that are confusing or frustrating. How do we ever really know if we are making the right decision? I suppose that my faith and trust in God will sustain me. But then, what about when I even question those parts of myself?
We all walk life together and yet alone. It is a fleeting thing that so easily can be changed or taken from you. But of all the things that worry me the most, it is seeing myself fail at life and fail at my relationships. Knowing that people I love count on me to be my best self. It is a terrible thing when you see ones you love fail. It is an enormous disappointment to see families torn by the emotions that this brings. An increasing chasm grows within and soon you are alone and vacant.
I guess I’m delving deep today, it’s just where I am in this journey. Life truly is the biggest conundrum of them all. Isn’t it? ~Mac