Category Archives: Life Lessons

When Suicide Knocked

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Suicide knocked three times, on the fourth knock it took you. It has been over four months that I have lived without you; it is unbearable. Is it really living when part of my heart is gone? I’m not sure. Perhaps it is only surviving from one minute to the next, one breath to the next. I must force my lungs to to inhale, my heart to beat and my feet to take step after step. How will I go on? I guess I will continue to learn. Whoever said, “It gets easier with time” was a damn lier. [It] gets harder everyday!

by Mac

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This Life

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Life has so much to teach me still, it bends me and tries to break my will
Takes me up just to drop me low, I never know which to way to go
Struggling daily just to cope, feeling like I have so little hope

However long I try to be free, depression always seems stronger than me
Ruining friendships I hold dear and the love I want to be so near
In the end I’ll likely be alone, for many things I must atone

I hate how vulnerable I feel with you and hate these damn emotions too
Always a wreck and I’m never in control, life is taking such a toll
From my mouth there’s no sound as I crumble to the ground

Don’t know how to live but cannot die, and you are the only reason why
I get so caught  up in my head- Wondering, am I better off as dead?
Yet every day that I’m with you, is so much better as us two©

by Mac

 

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Self-Destruct

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Pieces of me lay on the floor, cannot put myself back together again
I have torn the flesh from my own limbs and I am only bones now
The parts of me that once were beautiful are now ugly and decayed
I reek of death and loss as the Grim Reaper comes with his plow©

by Mac

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What Did You Expect?

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What did you expect of me? You let me go and set me free
I wouldn’t fly or spread my wings? I wouldn’t do new things?
Like a dog that runs away, doesn’t heed when you say stay
Because a little child I’m not, doesn’t listen to you on the spot

So don’t ignore the change you see, I’m not who I use to be
I make new choices for myself, no one can put me on a shelf
Took control of who I am, and now I don’t give one damn
What do you expect of me? Well, no more, because I’m free©

by Mac
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Inside Me

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There’s a yearning deep inside of me
Wants to get out and needs to be free
If I give in to this temptation though
Not sure where it will want me to go
So I’ll push down this want and need
For without strength it will not heed
This little ember is within my control
But anymore will burn away my soul
Then remnants of who I’d once been
No answer for where or why or when
Just a pile of my former self you’d see
If I allow this lust inside to roam free©

by Mac

 

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Pull Back The Curtain

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Pull back the curtain and you will see all the things hidden in me
Locked away deep in my soul, these are what make me whole
Keeping them covered from view, so not to hurt all of you
But I must embrace who I have become, my entire sum
Living a secretive way is not how to spend every day
Making the choice is harder still, but I know I will
Because when I choose me, then am I set free©

by Mac

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Our Yesterdays

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When looking back I wonder where time went
For all the memories and moments spent
We laughed and cried, we hoped and dreamed 
Could conquer anything, or so it seemed
Remembering things that bring my eyes tears
Even more are the smiles in those years
But I feel it was all worth those tears we shed
Today all the way back to when we wed

As the day starts fresh and life begins all new
Won’t ever forget there was me and you
I believe our love was written up in the stars
Even though it may no longer be ours
The journey has deviated from what was to be
One way for you and the other for me
So as we part, both heading our separate ways
Together is left in all of our yesterdays©

by Mac

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