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You Anchor Me

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Anchor Me© by Mac

I was adrift and had been lost at sea
Then you came along and rescued me
Winds were blowing and sails were torn
To be honest, I had given up and was worn
You threw me a rope and brought me to shore
Assured me waves could not harm me anymore
I had a tattered life, was just a broken, ugly vessel
Giving up, no longer with life did I wish to wrestle
But your love, like a lighthouse, showed the way
Leading me safely and guiding me into the bay
Wouldn’t let me give up, such a big supporter
Taught me to trust and how to drop anchor
Now I can sail and enjoy life on the ocean
All because of your amazing devotion©

by Mac

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Will Love Win?

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A blatant disregard for emotion, love and devotion
This is how you see me, and that all I want is to be free
Look into my eyes and know, I really have no desire to go
If being apart is your need, nothing left but to beg and plead
Holding on to all we have built, but I’m left with so much guilt
Times we’ve spent, the care you’ve shown, don’t want to be alone
But aparently it’s not enough, because life is cruel and world is tough
And if we aren’t in it through thick and thin, then the darkness will win
But hope is strong and I believe love can prevail, or perhaps it is to no avail
So, if we go our seperate ways, just know, you’ll be in my heart for all my days©

by Mac

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Speaking The Language

Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m even speaking the same language as the rest of the world. Have you ever felt this? When you are saying something and people look at you with blank eyes, like you are speaking your own made up words. I feel like I am often in this fog that is pulling me deeper into its clutches. At times amazes me that anything I do or say forms any sort of cohesion, let alone that I accomplish daily tasks.

Mental illness has wreaked havoc on our family this year. Although I am unable to share details at this time, I can tell you that it has been a very hard five months! With myself, as well as two teenagers (add puberty and hormones) whom all have one form or another of mental illness, and voila you have mayhem. And hubby, well, he is just trying to stear this crazy train!

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So, what do we do to get through this time in our lives? The best we can, I suppose. There is counseling and medicine, but also lots of listening and supporting. Learning coping skills and how to take care of mind, but also body. (Keep an eye out for a piece in the future on how we take care of our mind and body.) Some days we just chill (thank God for homeschool and flexibility) and other days we can only do our best to push through. Sometimes the sounding board for the kids and other times the warm embrace. There are nights when the four of us all sit on our queen size bed and just talk about how tough things are right now, other times no talking occurs and perhaps a tear or two is shed.

I never had to cope with my depression as a teenager. I didn’t begin my struggle until I was twenty. I cannot even imagine the difficulty of navigating an already stressful and confusing time of life, then adding depression and anxiety into the mix! But, I see the strength and determination that has taken root in my children’s lives. I believe in them and their abilities. And, at times I find myself thanking God for giving me depression, just so that I can be empathetic and understanding of my kids and the struggles they face. Ultimately, I know that we have got this!

May is Mental Illnes Month. If you or someone you know battles mental illness, there are many great resources here

My articles:
Life With Anxiety
Dear Agony-depression
Breaking Free
After The Storm

Your prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “language.”  #SoCS

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Bitterness, Silent Killer

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My body can’t bare the weight
World closing in and I suffocate
Bitterness and anger meet here
Blackness fills, until I disappear

All I need is one more breathe
Just give it to me so I can live
Captured, you hold me bound
Used up, cast on the ground

You refuse to hear all my outcries
Emotionless, believe your own lies
I needed you and you turn away
Unable to make you want to stay

Trust what you want about a soul
But mine is under your control
You keep me locked away, lonely
Tell me I will always be your only

Lies, all lies to keep me enslaved
When I just wanted to be saved
That is pain you see in my eyes
I refuse to wear your disguise

Bitterness you are just so cruel
Stubborn as a big damn mule
Is this all just a foolish game?
To keep me stuck in your pain©

by Mac
A reblog from December 7, 2016

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Differences

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To learn is key and that is what I’ve done
To be or not to be is question number one
I hope that I am always open to be taught
There are lots of lessons that can be sought
Full of many difference, we’re not the same
I am just a pupil but I want to start a flame©

by Mac

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Hands Of Time

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Time slowly passes the days go on and on
I have so much to bear and now you are gone
Thought that I’d do much better, able to be strong
But now I know I wasn’t ready and I was very wrong
Life can be so fleeting, the moments ebb and flow
Believed life was perfect,  just want you to know
Moments in a lifetime, just pictures in a frame
I want forever but you just couldn’t remain

The hands of time are just so unforgiving
Allowing death to steal from all of the living
While plundering our hearts with terrible grief
Taking from us so that our souls cannot find a relief
Broken and undone, I have lost all sense of feeling
Will this pain ever stop to allow me some healing
Yet from the loss and heartache I must believe
In this there is a lesson for me to receive©

by Mac

 

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You Can Never Satisfy Them All

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Nobody can ever please everyone all of the time

In fact you won’t even satisfy half of them partly

Desiring to do things just to make others happy

One will accomplish gratifying nobody equally

Thereby forever working hard to be discontent©

by Mac

 

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