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Lost In A Circle

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Inhale, exhale and then do it again
Numb me, take me to a happier place
I wander in the darkness, bring me light
But, all you do is bring me deeper into night

Lost in a circle, yet it feels like a maze
When I think I’m at the end I start again
Push and pull, up and down, just one more
All I seem to do is live for the moments I soar©

by Mac

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Broken Things

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Fallen to pieces, you’re broken

Heart given all that it could

But your beauty is unspoken

Perhaps even misunderstood

 

So I pick up all that is shattered

Molding you into a work of art

Proving to you that you’ve mattered

Precious gold flows from my heart

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My Heart

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My breath catches, my heart flutters

I can’t breathe, my brain utters…

”Go forward, find peace, move on!”

But I can’t, because you are gone

It is so final and I so incomplete

I am a shell, my heart can’t beat

I would curse God, but I know

In my heart, I know, you had to go

by Mac

 

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Happiness Is

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happiness is not found in one

happiness is not found in a thing

happiness is not what makes the world

happiness is not what makes me sing

happiness is only for the lucky few

happiness is only when I’m dreaming

happiness is such a fleeting memory

happiness is just for those living

daily I put on my mask of happiness

by Mac

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Don’t Mistake

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Don’t mistake my dry eyes and smile for being okay. I will never be alright again. I will wear my grief everywhere for the rest of my life, it’s part of me now. When I get through the day, have made it out of bed and chose to go into the world this day, I am choosing to live for the ones I love. But don’t mistake my living as moving on, I will never move on, I will only mark every life event as before or after. And please, don’t mistake when I have emotions as weakness, I am a strong mother f…er!
By Mac

Philip’s Mom (8 weeks today he’s been gone)

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Wasted Away

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My spirit is depleted and so run down

The sun doesn’t shine for me anymore

Overrun by weeds and under watered

I’m not able to grow in the darkness

Shriveled up and wasted away, dead

by Mac

 

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Childhood Memories

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You were in such a rush to grow

Oh how the time did go

Before I knew you’re ten plus seven

Then you left me for heaven

I miss my boy so much each day

Thinking of how you’d play

Games and toys, so many new things

Now are abandoned belongings

My heart is torn up and I often weep

But memories I’ll always keep

Even though they can be bitter sweet

Tightly held until again we meet

by Mac

 

 

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