Skin Deep

What kind of word is nattyWordPress? Argh!! 

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I used a thesaurus and found out it means some such thing about looks. Do tell me UK friends, is this word your doing? I suppose if I was dapper, dashing or dainty it would be a great adverb. But I quite hate it altogether! Change one letter and you spell nasty and that is all I can think of. Blah! 

So in an effort to go on with writing for this word of the day- here’s a go at it!

There once was a man so dapper, but he was only a good napper
And a maiden of considerable looks, but she only could read books
But life isn’t all about fashions, you should also follow your passions
So if you are tempted to be vain, remember it’s okay to be plain©

 

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Imagine This

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When life gets too hard I go to my special place
I look deep within this imaginary space

Time has no meaning and we walk up-side-down
There are no mirrors and no one can frown

Tears come only from laughing and giggling too
And most of the time that is all that we do

Who are the “We” I refer to, you want to know? 
Well, this is only where the most special go

Often they’re found in the darkest, ugliest parts
But they have the most beautiful hearts

Using their minds they create amazing dreams
There is nothing more lovely, or so it seems

Once in a while this monster will try to get in
But we put up a fight, won’t let him win

He knocks on the doors and tears at our walls
Says unkind things, to the weakest he calls

He has lots of  names, his heart black with deceit
But the one I fear most, the one I can’t beat

This voice calls to me often, attempting to lure me
Depressions its name, not sure I’ll ever be free©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

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Living Is A Choice~Birthday Reflections

Birth is not a choice we get to make, we are brought into this world 
Some simply come into this life to exist only for the sake of existing
Others will choose to make this world a better place, living it in full
How we embrace our course is up to us, no one can decide but you
Will you elect to be a person who conquers the world each day here?
Touching the lives of those you come into contact with, uplifting them
Bring light to the dark, laughter to the sad, love to the broken-hearted
Looking at the world, see the good and the beautiful, embracing it all
Birth is not a choice we get to make, but choosing to live is one we make daily!

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Today is my birthday, and as I reflect on life and how many ups and downs that it brings. One thing that I have come to realize is that every day is a choice. Will I choose to get up and live life, making the best of every circumstance that I face? Life throws many things at us, it is how we react to them that can make or break us. So as I go into another year of life, I will again choose to keep living. It is a conscious decision, one that is not always the easier path. In fact, really never easier. But, I know that through this life, I will have an impact and I will make a difference. These are things that I strive for, I hope to obtain. What will you do with the life you have been given? I hope that you will shine on! ©

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Can Words Prevail?

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I cannot get the words out, they just won’t come
Sometimes letters get so jumbled up between my mind and the keys
I want to put my emotions down, but…What was I going to say? 

Thoughts like the ocean ebb to and fro
Going on and on into the horizon, never getting anywhere
A lost vessel that is going through the motions

My words disapate in the air like smoke
One moment they were a blaze, the next they are only embers
You can see the affects but now only blackness remains 

A battle rages for the next line
Who will come forward and fight to be heard?
Bloodied and worn, can words prevail?©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

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Don’t Want To Play

 

These are lyrics to a song that I wrote a while back during a very dark time in my life. I was in a very self destructive place, stemming from a depression that was consuming me. Writing has been a very theraputic outlet for me and plays a major roll in aiding me when I feel myself falling. It is so important to find things that keep you grounded or bring you joy, even if they are momentary, during these times. May is Mental Illness Month. If you or someone you know battles mental illness, there are many great resources here.  

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Don’t Want To Play

by Mac

You tied my hands and you broke my will
Roughed me up, bleeding, you took your fill
Stole all my dignity, now I’ve none to spare
Then told me lies, said they wouldn’t care

Darkness please find another play ground
No more do I desire to be sought and found
Darkness please find another play ground
Last time we played I almost drowned

Next time you want to play your game
I hope I’m strong enough to say the same
But I get weak and tired from the run
Each time I’m fooled, think I already won

Darkness please find another play ground
No more do I desire to be sought and found
Darkness please find another play ground
Last time we played I almost drowned

I am the puppet and you hold the strings
Took my voice, which no good thing brings
Used my words towards others, now disdain
And to my heart, brought me much pain

Darkness please find another play ground
No more do I desire to be sought and found
Darkness please find another play ground
Last time we played I almost drowned©

 

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Where The Light Is

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As deep within water washes away my sins
Infusing of today with yesterday’s sorrows
Feel pain but there is so much nothingness
Why can’t I retreat into the darkness now?
Never looking back, just going into shadows
So many questions and so very few answers
As I inhale the fragrance of salty air and sun
I know it will be okay, at least in this moment
For where the light is, no darkness prevails©

by Mac

May is Mental Illness Month.
If you or someone you know battles mental illness,
there are many great resources here.  

Other articles:
Mental Illness May#1
Speaking The Language
Helping My Children
Life With Anxiety

Dear Agony
Breaking Free
After The Storm

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To Self Be True

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I need a reprieve from life, as a mother and a wife
Things are tough and just so damn rough
Slow down, smell a rose or touch sand with my toes
Or see a sunset as tears make my face wet

Alas I am a mom and wife, for this indeed is my life
So I go on with my days, for them always
First to be as they need, while insides beg and pleed
Can such selfishness hold any happiness?

Along the way I decided to be all of me, undivided
Giving in to what I feel, helps me to heal
It’s okay to have these times, we need to sometimes
I found to be content, I will need to vent

If you’re a spouse or a parent, no need to feel errant
Don’t allow guilt when life makes you wilt
Connect with emotions each day as you find the way
The strength is in you, to yourself be true©

by Mac

 

 

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