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When Suicide Knocked

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Suicide knocked three times, on the fourth knock it took you. It has been over four months that I have lived without you; it is unbearable. Is it really living when part of my heart is gone? I’m not sure. Perhaps it is only surviving from one minute to the next, one breath to the next. I must force my lungs to to inhale, my heart to beat and my feet to take step after step. How will I go on? I guess I will continue to learn. Whoever said, “It gets easier with time” was a damn lier. [It] gets harder everyday!

by Mac

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Nothing Remains

Magical bird takes flight.

Released my soul, I set it free, but it keeps coming back to me
I told it lies, called it names, but says it loves me all the same
So now I can’t feel a thing, but also no joy does anything bring
Emptied of all the bitter pain, but then nothing does remain©

by Mac

See another piece if you like this one: “Darkness Remains

 

 

 

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All I Was

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There is nothing left in my veins
Last drop of blood is poured free
An empty vessel with no life force
All I was has been taken from  me

A dead man walking is now my fait
There’s no more to give in my heart
So soon I will only be a bag of bones
Then vultures come to tear me apart

I’m just a shadow of my former self
None would even recognize me now
As I go through this life and the next
One thing I hope that fate will allow

I’ll pray that in the next life I can find
The only love that I have ever known
With each moment that we are apart
Is pain for all sins that I must atone

There is nothing left in my veins
Last drop of blood is poured free
An empty vessel with no life force
All I was has been taken from  me©

by Mac

 

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Some People…

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Some People…

Some people are just so exasperating
I mean they are frikin damn frustrating

I want to go and put them over my knee
Treat them how they behave, like three

Make them pay for the way they act
Tell them all of my mind, that’s a fact

Shake and slap them with all my might
And yell at them all through the night

Tell them that they are loved by me
But how maddening they can really be

And if by chance that they were to see
Truth is I’d hope that they’d believe me

When I say that life is already so rough
Being upset at you makes it more tough

Would they even believe a word I’ve said
Probably not until after they are all dead

I’ll grieve at the things that I have done
But will be too late and they will be gone

Some People© by SBDMB (MM)

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Bitterness, Silent Killer

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My body can’t bare the weight
World closing in and I suffocate
Bitterness and anger meet here
Blackness fills, until I disappear

All I need is one more breathe
Just give it to me so I can live
Captured, you hold me bound
Used up, cast on the ground

You refuse to hear all my outcries
Emotionless, believe your own lies
I needed you and you turn away
Unable to make you want to stay

Trust what you want about a soul
But mine is under your control
You keep me locked away, lonely
Tell me I will always be your only

Lies, all lies to keep me enslaved
When I just wanted to be saved
That is pain you see in my eyes
I refuse to wear your disguise

Bitterness you are just so cruel
Stubborn as a big damn mule
Is this all just a foolish game?
To keep me stuck in your pain

Bitterness, Silent Killer© by SBDMB (MM)

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