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I Am

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Tucked away from the view of the world

I am 

Locked out of sight of those that do judge

I am

Riddled with contempt of other’s strength

I am

Hiding my face and refusing to let anyone see 

I am

Afraid to breathe lest I divulge my hiding place

I am

Breaking people in two and families asunder

I am

Ensnared by the turmoil that eats away inside

I am 

Fallen from the light into the darkest of times

I am

My name spoken on the lips of the persecuted

I am… Depression©

by Mac

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Rain Upon My Soul

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My soul is thirsty but I have no more to give

The spring has all but dried up within me

My body decays as I long for this quenching

How am I to live in this state of utter need?

To thrive as everything around me withers

The living among this wasteland of the dead

Exposed to emotions of loss and utter pain

I pray for rain to come and relieve my soul

Tears that will wash away the dust and filth

Revealing new growth and revitalizing the old

Changing that which I was into what I will be

Newness of life and a soul once again full of joy

I must hope, I must believe, I must have faith

If the rain does not come I fear all will be lost©

by Mac

 

 

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I Want A Refund

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No deposit and no returns

I can’t believe how life burns

Chews me up and spits me out

Of its intentions I have little doubt

It makes me suffer and wants my soul

Leaving me to feel like I have no control

Still I’m caught up in what is the game of life

And it is forever and ever going to cause me strife

But what is easy has so very few forms of worth

So as long as I am allowed to be here on earth

I am choosing to live each and every minute

Like I am existing in life’s game to win it

One foot in front of the other every day

It’s beautifully molding me like clay

My hopes and dreams I will revive

Repaying me so that I can thrive

by Mac©

 

 

 

 

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An Ode To Depression

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I let you in, under my skin

Keeping you all for all time, but became a mime

Inviting you to go, you said no

Then want you to stay, hope I can live this way

A bird in a cage, filled with rage

Damn depression you suck, with you I’m stuck

Confusing my reality, set me free

The cycle is just insane, but yet you’re my bane

I push you away, beg you to stay

I must except this reality, you’ll never let me be

Afraid what I’ll find, in my mind

The fog keeps me in denial, it makes me so vile

Continuing I cope, filled with hope

That one day I’ll be free, no longer a you and me©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

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Feel Free To Go

 

Life is just so complex, so complicated, it sucks and it is messy. What do you do with emotions that are hurting you? How do you throw them away when they are stuck to your insides like glue? Do you put them in a box and place that box in storage unit, throw away the key? How about a wood chipper? Often I just want to forget about emotions and feelings altogether. They have injured me and cut me deeper than they have ever done me any good! 

In fact, I may be on the tour bus route for emotions and feelings. They all get off and have a party in my heart. They get drunk, trash it and then like a relative that overstays their welcome, won’t leave. Yes, I am left with a bunch of drunk emotions, they won’t get out and have terrible hygiene. They screw up the sleeping arrangements and steal all the silver. Vomit in all the bathrooms, don’t know how to flush and eat all the food. Emotions are inconsiderate, come and go as they please and can’t take a hint when it’s time to go. I feel like I need a sign that reads, “No emotions allowed” nailed to my forehead. 

So what do I do with these little F@%@$? I mean can I call an exterminator? Has anyone seen Arnold? If anyone knows of such a person, do feel free to send them my way. In the mean time, I will just be over here in a fetal position, trying to figure out what I am to do with these unwanted guests! Feel free to go at anytime emotions, signed ~Mac©

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Hold On

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I just have to hold on, this is all I can do

I know I never have stopped loving you

Hearts have been hurt, it’s too much to say

Life will go on, you’ll forgive me one day

And when in the future you look at my face

You’ll forget sorrow and have joy in its place

Hold On© by Mac xx

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Luster Lost

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I feel like I’ve lost my luster

Some days no strength to muster

Why does life get so hard?

It is just leaving me so marred

Emotions can be my bane

Often leaving me going in sane

But then I believe in feeling

Even with outcome unappealing

I won’t give up dreaming

That one day again I’ll be beaming

Luster Lost© by Mac

 

 

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