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Lost And Not Found

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Lost myself, cannot be found
Looked and looked all around
But to no avail I couldn’t find
Where it was I put my mind

How’d I realize I was gone?
The sunrise one early dawn
Beauty of the morning’s sun
No longer felt emotions come

Couldn’t be moved anymore
As I stood on thee ocean shore
The salty air or waves of gold
Yet all I am is bitter and cold

I touch where heart should be
It is a mystery how it did flee
Also found my spirit was MIA
Not certain how I got this way

Was it my choice? Had I known?
That I would leave me all alone
To face this cruel uncaring place
Not one emotion left on this face

So, I put an add out in the paper
“A missing person, it is a caper”
But just received one sad reply
“Sorry I forgot to say goodbye!”©

by Mac

 

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My Message

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Put my emotions in a bottle and set them free at sea

They washed onto the shore and you found them for me

You released me from my burden, handled with so much care

But realized it wasn’t healthy to keep my feeling locked up in there

Assured me that it was safe, a place that I was free to let my emotions go

Filled with apprehension, yet a freeing sence indeed, as I saw my feelings flow©

by Mac

 

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This Bitter Beast

She is a devilish beast, full of crafty ways
Standing in the shadows, lurking
I feel myself locked within her evil gaze
Ignoring the place she comes from
And what she’d want to get from the likes of me
But I am rendered quite numb
Hopeful that she soon will just let me be free

Escape from her control seems to be in vain
My strength is running on empty
Taking me under her spell, again I feel the pain
Whispering in my ear, confessing
Reminding me of emotions I wanted to forego
Mind then taken over by obsessing
It’s what bitterness does when you won’t let go©

by Mac

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Feel Free To Go

 

Life is just so complex, so complicated, it sucks and it is messy. What do you do with emotions that are hurting you? How do you throw them away when they are stuck to your insides like glue? Do you put them in a box and place that box in storage unit, throw away the key? How about a wood chipper? Often I just want to forget about emotions and feelings altogether. They have injured me and cut me deeper than they have ever done me any good! 

In fact, I may be on the tour bus route for emotions and feelings. They all get off and have a party in my heart. They get drunk, trash it and then like a relative that overstays their welcome, won’t leave. Yes, I am left with a bunch of drunk emotions, they won’t get out and have terrible hygiene. They screw up the sleeping arrangements and steal all the silver. Vomit in all the bathrooms, don’t know how to flush and eat all the food. Emotions are inconsiderate, come and go as they please and can’t take a hint when it’s time to go. I feel like I need a sign that reads, “No emotions allowed” nailed to my forehead. 

So what do I do with these little F@%@$? I mean can I call an exterminator? Has anyone seen Arnold? If anyone knows of such a person, do feel free to send them my way. In the mean time, I will just be over here in a fetal position, trying to figure out what I am to do with these unwanted guests! Feel free to go at anytime emotions, signed ~Mac©

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Overcomer

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Never knew how capable I was

I told the truth and undid

Everything I once held dear

Now life is just so unclear

I’ll hold up there is no doubt

I can’t give up on you or me

What was one is torn in two

Now so much I must renew

But I know we’ll overcome

This journey is an uphill race

Looking back and one day see

What was to be of you and me

Overcomer© by Mac

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Bitterness, Silent Killer

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My body can’t bare the weight
World closing in and I suffocate
Bitterness and anger meet here
Blackness fills, until I disappear

All I need is one more breathe
Just give it to me so I can live
Captured, you hold me bound
Used up, cast on the ground

You refuse to hear all my outcries
Emotionless, believe your own lies
I needed you and you turn away
Unable to make you want to stay

Trust what you want about a soul
But mine is under your control
You keep me locked away, lonely
Tell me I will always be your only

Lies, all lies to keep me enslaved
When I just wanted to be saved
That is pain you see in my eyes
I refuse to wear your disguise

Bitterness you are just so cruel
Stubborn as a big damn mule
Is this all just a foolish game?
To keep me stuck in your pain

Bitterness, Silent Killer© by SBDMB (MM)

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Don’t Go

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Paved with good intentions
Is what they often say
But my Hell is here
If I can’t make you stay

Life is just not kind
Emotions ebb and flow
You have set me free
But I don’t want to go

The voices in my head
Screaming out in fear
I try to block them out
I don’t want to hear

I spent up all your love
Abused you to the core
Chewed and spit you out
Don’t need me anymore

But Baby you don’t know
That what I felt was real
Our journey can’t be over
I pray that this will heal

Let me break these walls
Forged to keep love out
I’ll wait to find a way
Don’t you ever even doubt

Your in my review mirror
Distance growing wide
Strength is my charade
Broken down, I’ve cried

Lost, I’m really searching
For the right words to say
Is there really anything
Can I make you stay?

Life is just not kind
Emotions ebb and flow
You have set me free
Begging, please don’t go!

©Don’t Go by SBDMB (MM)

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