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A Rain Song

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Lightning flashed in my eyes, but I could only hear the clap of thunder
Blinded by the shadows, nothing is clear
I felt like I was going under

The voices in my head got louder and they drowned out my quiet cries
Making me doubt myself and choices
They told me so many lies

My mistakes kept haunting me, as I continued searching for perfection
The end was in sight, to my head I held the trigger
Couldn’t find any objection

Sweet innocence was yesterday’s news, my only possession was shame
I quickly took one more breathe, as my life
The flash finally did claim

All I heard was the clap of thunder, then lightning struck me with a bang
I kept falling down, so very far down
Then my last words I sang

“Can anybody hear me as I scream out in pain?
Will anyone notice if I’m forever gone?

 Am I crying or is it just the rain?“©

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This Complicated Thing Called Life

socsStream of Consciousness Saturday is: “how.”  Start your post with the word “How.” Bonus points if you end with it too.

How did life get so complicated? I would love to go back to a time when all I had to worry about was school grades, what to wear and what to eat for breakfast. Now, here I am married, with two teenagers of my own and the responcibility’s list goes on. I have a million thoughts running through my mind constantly. Yesterday, at one point, I literally could not focus on one thing at a time, and was running around like a mad woman. Well, some would say “mad woman,” while others would just say, mom. Is it any wonder though that I am losing my mind? Really, the pressures of life get higher as does my age! Sometimes I think that I would like to fane crazy just to get a holiday in a hospital (okay, maybe that’s taking it a bit too far, but I know some of you get me)!

 Now, I need to go get ready for work, which happens to be my respite from the complications, some how.  ~Mac

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This War

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You come with hopes to destroy

Everything that I hold dear

Looking to take my joy

A struggle builds, my wall tatters

War injures without mercy 

Until nothing matters

Shattered, broken and also maimed

I’m no longer of a sound mind 

A victory you’ve claimed

My defenses you have torn asunder

Coming in you take your fill

My mind you plunder

Your tenticles reaching in, attack

Find the weakest parts of me

On them you’ll snack

Until I’m just a broken, empty vessel

Nothing but a worthless shell

With darkness I wrestle

Depression is a well trained opponent

This war continues for my mind

One day I hope to own it©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Life’s Connections

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I’d like to say that life has been simple, but this is very far from true

When I think of this path I’ve been on, things I’ve had to do

I find myself confused at times and uncertain of what the future holds

That’s the way the cookie crumbles or how my journey molds

People will often disappoint me, hey I will disappoint many people too

In fact I’ll hurt and tear apart some, it may even be one of you

And if you happen upon my heart, please tell me where it can be found

Somewhere along the way was lost, think I left it on the ground

I’ll grieve many losses and wish at times I hadn’t made a friend or two

But things would be much lonelier so I change my point of view

I will take the heartache and sorrow because I have also found affections

And be grateful for my journey and times I’ve made connections©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I Want A Refund

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by picjumbo

No deposit and no returns

I can’t believe how life burns

Chews me up and spits me out

Of its intentions I have little doubt

It makes me suffer and wants my soul

Leaving me to feel like I have no control

Still I’m caught up in what is the game of life

And it is forever and ever going to cause me strife

But what is easy has so very few forms of worth

So as long as I am allowed to be here on earth

I am choosing to live each and every minute

Like I am existing in life’s game to win it

One foot in front of the other every day

It’s beautifully molding me like clay

My hopes and dreams I will revive

Repaying me so that I can thrive

by Mac©

 

 

 

 

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Ethereal Castle

oh my ethereal castle 

these walls and this structure

they had been built up to hold me

but i have brought much devastation

in their wake i am left to find solace in pain

nothing left to keep me, it’s all utterly crumbled

and now i am left picking up the pieces of them both

piece by piece and brick by brick i must rebuild this fortress

for without it i fear the vultures will pick at my wounds eternally 

yes truly i must find strength and have faith that we will survive it all©

Ethereal Castle by Mac

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The Space Between

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The space between, What is unseen

Love holds me, Time molds me

Life keeps me, Path meets me

Forever and a day, We stay

Not invisible to me, See

You and me, Equal we

Between and seen

Love holds us

Molds us

Keeps us

Meets us

©Mac

 

 

 

 

 

 

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