Skin Deep

What kind of word is nattyWordPress? Argh!! 

I used a thesaurus and found out it means some such thing about looks. Do tell me UK friends, is this word your doing? I suppose if I was dapper, dashing or dainty it would be a great adverb. But I quite hate it altogether! Change one letter and you spell nasty and that is all I can think of. Blah! 

So in an effort to go on with writing for this word of the day- here’s a go at it!

There once was a man so dapper, but he was only a good napper
And a maiden of considerable looks, but she only could read books
But life isn’t all about fashions, you should also follow your passions
So if you are tempted to be vain, remember it’s okay to be plain©

 

Where The Light Is

As deep within water washes away my sins
Infusing of today with yesterday’s sorrows
Feel pain but there is so much nothingness
Why can’t I retreat into the darkness now?
Never looking back, just going into shadows
So many questions and so very few answers
As I inhale the fragrance of salty air and sun
I know it will be okay, at least in this moment
For where the light is, no darkness prevails©

by Mac

May is Mental Illness Month.
If you or someone you know battles mental illness,
there are many great resources here.  

Other articles:
Mental Illness May#1
Speaking The Language
Helping My Children
Life With Anxiety
Dear Agony
Breaking Free
After The Storm

To Self Be True

I need a reprieve from life, as a mother and a wife
Things are tough and just so damn rough
Slow down, smell a rose or touch sand with my toes
Or see a sunset as tears make my face wet

Alas I am a mom and wife, for this indeed is my life
So I go on with my days, for them always
First to be as they need, while insides beg and pleed
Can such selfishness hold any happiness?

Along the way I decided to be all of me, undivided
Giving in to what I feel, helps me to heal
It’s okay to have these times, we need to sometimes
I found to be content, I will need to vent

If you’re a spouse or a parent, no need to feel errant
Don’t allow guilt when life makes you wilt
Connect with emotions each day as you find the way
The strength is in you, to yourself be true©

by Mac

 

 

Bitterness, Silent Killer

My body can’t bare the weight
World closing in and I suffocate
Bitterness and anger meet here
Blackness fills, until I disappear

All I need is one more breathe
Just give it to me so I can live
Captured, you hold me bound
Used up, cast on the ground

You refuse to hear all my outcries
Emotionless, believe your own lies
I needed you and you turn away
Unable to make you want to stay

Trust what you want about a soul
But mine is under your control
You keep me locked away, lonely
Tell me I will always be your only

Lies, all lies to keep me enslaved
When I just wanted to be saved
That is pain you see in my eyes
I refuse to wear your disguise

Bitterness you are just so cruel
Stubborn as a big damn mule
Is this all just a foolish game?
To keep me stuck in your pain©

by Mac
A reblog from December 7, 2016

Differences

To learn is key and that is what I’ve done
To be or not to be is question number one
I hope that I am always open to be taught
There are lots of lessons that can be sought
Full of many difference, we’re not the same
I am just a pupil but I want to start a flame©

by Mac

The Gray Doesn’t Last

I have to believe that… 

The days won’t always be gray
We will make it as we are
Both having come so very far

I have to trust that…

Life doesn’t give us any more
Than we can get through
 You have me and I have you

I have to remember that…

Perfection is not something real
But in this existence I know
Most important is the love we show©

by Mac

Hands Of Time

Time slowly passes the days go on and on
I have so much to bear and now you are gone
Thought that I’d do much better, able to be strong
But now I know I wasn’t ready and I was very wrong
Life can be so fleeting, the moments ebb and flow
Believed life was perfect,  just want you to know
Moments in a lifetime, just pictures in a frame
I want forever but you just couldn’t remain

The hands of time are just so unforgiving
Allowing death to steal from all of the living
While plundering our hearts with terrible grief
Taking from us so that our souls cannot find a relief
Broken and undone, I have lost all sense of feeling
Will this pain ever stop to allow me some healing
Yet from the loss and heartache I must believe
In this there is a lesson for me to receive©

by Mac

 

You Can Never Satisfy Them All

Nobody can ever please everyone all of the time

In fact you won’t even satisfy half of them partly

Desiring to do things just to make others happy

One will accomplish gratifying nobody equally

Thereby forever working hard to be discontent©

by Mac

 

Storm’s Promise

There is no denying how much I love you
Actions say one thing and I know it’s true

How I feel when I think of being without
There is no question and I have no doubt

I would voyage across the depths of time
Just to hear you say that you’re still mine

And I would swim shark infested oceans
You know that’s big, not just my emotions

Our love is real but life is so complicated
This is my fault, a mess that I’ve created

The future is hard and a bit of a question
So can I just say this, make one suggestion

If things get in our way, obscure our view
Remember our goal and we’ll get through

Love is my choice and so is being together
We have ups and downs just like weather

So just like a rainbow appears after the rain
Here’s my promise this storm is not in vain©

by Mac

 

Self Doubt

Be careful what you wish for is what they always say
And I did not believe them until things came my way

For life is full of obstacles and though some are small
It has been the big ones I find are hardest of them all

Then I wished for patience and this was a huge mistake
Cause, my trials became almost more than I could take

It is said God won’t give you more than you can handle
I witnessed others do well, to them can’t hold a candle

I shouldn’t be comparing or say I have it much harder
As through flames I have learned to have a lot of ardor

I’ve gained much strength, seen who it’s made me to be
In the challenges remembering faith isn’t what you see

Evolving and changing, hopes I turn out much improved
But most of all I pray for the doubt in self to be removed©

by Mac