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Ethereal Castle

oh my ethereal castle 

these walls and this structure

they had been built up to hold me

but i have brought much devastation

in their wake i am left to find solace in pain

nothing left to keep me, it’s all utterly crumbled

and now i am left picking up the pieces of them both

piece by piece and brick by brick i must rebuild this fortress

for without it i fear the vultures will pick at my wounds eternally 

yes truly i must find strength and have faith that we will survive it all©

Ethereal Castle by Mac

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Feel Free To Go

 

Life is just so complex, so complicated, it sucks and it is messy. What do you do with emotions that are hurting you? How do you throw them away when they are stuck to your insides like glue? Do you put them in a box and place that box in storage unit, throw away the key? How about a wood chipper? Often I just want to forget about emotions and feelings altogether. They have injured me and cut me deeper than they have ever done me any good! 

In fact, I may be on the tour bus route for emotions and feelings. They all get off and have a party in my heart. They get drunk, trash it and then like a relative that overstays their welcome, won’t leave. Yes, I am left with a bunch of drunk emotions, they won’t get out and have terrible hygiene. They screw up the sleeping arrangements and steal all the silver. Vomit in all the bathrooms, don’t know how to flush and eat all the food. Emotions are inconsiderate, come and go as they please and can’t take a hint when it’s time to go. I feel like I need a sign that reads, “No emotions allowed” nailed to my forehead. 

So what do I do with these little F@%@$? I mean can I call an exterminator? Has anyone seen Arnold? If anyone knows of such a person, do feel free to send them my way. In the mean time, I will just be over here in a fetal position, trying to figure out what I am to do with these unwanted guests! Feel free to go at anytime emotions, signed ~Mac©

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Reality’s Choices

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A hope, a wish, a dream

But what is the reality?

To feel, to live, to beam

When will this be me?

Someday is just so far away

I must live with my decision

Heavy on my heart does weigh

It’s not always as you envision

I hope, I pray, I strive

But our reality is this

We must choose to thrive

Until our reality is bliss

Reality’s Choice© by Mac

 

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Hold On

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I just have to hold on, this is all I can do

I know I never have stopped loving you

Hearts have been hurt, it’s too much to say

Life will go on, you’ll forgive me one day

And when in the future you look at my face

You’ll forget sorrow and have joy in its place

Hold On© by Mac xx

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Up In Smoke

Like a magician you perform, To your audience of one
Making people disappear, All in the name of fun

Acrid smoke and mirrors, Play a dangerous game
And for a clown as me, I live with only shame

Dimming of the lights, Curtains slowly spread
Is this all the final act? Will I soon by dead?

The music starts its tempo, Softly calls to me
“Come now lonely child, I can make you free.”

There are no expectations, Nothing you need fret.”
But I see through his charade, It leaves me with regret

At last this great performer, Reveals himself you see
Life is but a vapor and behind this mask was only me

©Up In Smoke by SBDMB (MM)

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