Lost In A Circle

Inhale, exhale and then do it again
Numb me, take me to a happier place
I wander in the darkness, bring me light
But, all you do is bring me deeper into night

Lost in a circle, yet it feels like a maze
When I think I’m at the end I start again
Push and pull, up and down, just one more
All I seem to do is live for the moments I soar©

by Mac

Broken Things

Fallen to pieces, you’re broken

Heart given all that it could

But your beauty is unspoken

Perhaps even misunderstood

 

So I pick up all that is shattered

Molding you into a work of art

Proving to you that you’ve mattered

Precious gold flows from my heart

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Sun

My heart may be broken, but I will not let it bring me to my knees
I will stand with my feet firmly planted and hands to the sky
Let the sun kiss my face and wind playfully tickle my skin
Dreaming of the lovely day we are together once again©

by Mac

Once More

Once More

Hold me once more
Arms of my child embrace
Once more let me see your face
Son of mine, it is you that I adore

Forever is way too long
Just let me see you once more
Your smile makes my heart soar
And your laughter is my soul’s song

Once more I would say
‘Love you with all my heart’
Death has taken and torn us apart
However, I will see you again one day©

by Mac

One month, Friday, March 23, could you really have come and gone already? It has been one month since I lost a piece of my heart, my sweet 17 year old boy. His smile and laughter forever gone from this world. His wisdom beyond years, intelligence and desire to learn, snuffed out too soon. Oh, please tell me that I am in the midst of a terrible dream, nightmare, let me wake up and find you are safe in your bed. The only darkness surrounding me being the lack of the sunshine, it no longer comes to see me. But alas, it is my reality…© Mac

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These Voices

Don’t criticize me and my choices

I’m just so tired of all the voices

Inside my head they swirl, turn

For silence I constantly yearn

Still louder until I’ve drowned

These voices in my head pound

When finally I get in a word

They make me feel so absurd

Force me to question each move

Anxious for others to approve

But no matter which way I go

I am always faced with a blow

Self doubt, is my worst enemy

From [it] I need to flee

So into myself I’ll go, retreat

Maybe one day this won’t repeat

by Mac

 

This Life

Life has so much to teach me still, it bends me and tries to break my will
Takes me up just to drop me low, I never know which to way to go
Struggling daily just to cope, feeling like I have so little hope

However long I try to be free, depression always seems stronger than me
Ruining friendships I hold dear and the love I want to be so near
In the end I’ll likely be alone, for many things I must atone

I hate how vulnerable I feel with you and hate these damn emotions too
Always a wreck and I’m never in control, life is taking such a toll
From my mouth there’s no sound as I crumble to the ground

Don’t know how to live but cannot die, and you are the only reason why
I get so caught  up in my head- Wondering, am I better off as dead?
Yet every day that I’m with you, is so much better as us two©

by Mac

 

You And Me

Here in your arms, I am safe from what harms
Tasting your lips, my sweet nectar drips
Your touch on my skin, leaves me free within
As I feel you in me, you’re all I can see
Looked deep in your eyes, this love intensifies
Forever here it will be you and me©

by Mac

 

 

Daily Prompt

Self-Destruct

Pieces of me lay on the floor, cannot put myself back together again
I have torn the flesh from my own limbs and I am only bones now
The parts of me that once were beautiful are now ugly and decayed
I reek of death and loss as the Grim Reaper comes with his plow©

by Mac

What Did You Expect?

What did you expect of me? You let me go and set me free
I wouldn’t fly or spread my wings? I wouldn’t do new things?
Like a dog that runs away, doesn’t heed when you say stay
Because a little child I’m not, doesn’t listen to you on the spot

So don’t ignore the change you see, I’m not who I use to be
I make new choices for myself, no one can put me on a shelf
Took control of who I am, and now I don’t give one damn
What do you expect of me? Well, no more, because I’m free©

by Mac

Just Another Love Song

A simple gesture, a hand on mine, skin to skin
Touches me deeper than one could imagine
Never realized how foreign it could feel
Until you reached in and warmed me

Were the gods looking down on this moment?
Did they see my brokeness and yours too?
Two lost souls destined to be haunted?
No, our pasts do not taint us here!

So, can there be something so true?
As a second chance come along
If I am to believe this, and I do
Then this is where I belong
Here I ascend into you©

by Mac