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See Through Me

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You see through me, for I cannot hide my heart away
Longing for a reprieve from feeling darkness someday

You know how black my soul is, you can see the hues
But yet how you can love this vessel, I’m so confused

How can I deserve one as you is such a great mystery
Our true love is the kind that goes in books of history

One day I hope that all the black from me fades away
Longing for a reprieve from feeling darkness someday©

by Mac

 

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What Is The Answer?

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Haunting my sleep always

Always I fear mourning loss
Loss that consumes all my soul
Soul that was once entwined in you
You can cure these symptoms of mine
Mine I hope that you will always be
Be in my heart til forever my love
Love’s what we must hold on to
To be or not to is the question
But what is the answer? ©

by Mac

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After The Storm

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Despair shouts my name
Telling me it wants to talk
But I know it’s just a game
Forever I feel it will stalk

I’m ravaged in the night
As it takes from my heart
It holds onto me so tight
Fearing it will never depart

But then as I dream of you
It chases all my terror away
Wakening I feel brand new
Seeing much clearer today

With all your might hold on
Please guide me each night
Bring me safe to the dawn
All my demons you’ll smite

You are the sun after it rains
A healing begins in my soul
Driving away so many pains
Finally I begin to feel whole

I’m faced with many choices
Yet things become very clear
Calming all of the loud voices
Because love conquers all fear©

by Mac

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Rain Upon My Soul

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My soul is thirsty but I have no more to give

The spring has all but dried up within me

My body decays as I long for this quenching

How am I to live in this state of utter need?

To thrive as everything around me withers

The living among this wasteland of the dead

Exposed to emotions of loss and utter pain

I pray for rain to come and relieve my soul

Tears that will wash away the dust and filth

Revealing new growth and revitalizing the old

Changing that which I was into what I will be

Newness of life and a soul once again full of joy

I must hope, I must believe, I must have faith

If the rain does not come I fear all will be lost©

by Mac

 

 

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An Ode To Depression

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I let you in, under my skin

Keeping you all for all time, but became a mime

Inviting you to go, you said no

Then want you to stay, hope I can live this way

A bird in a cage, filled with rage

Damn depression you suck, with you I’m stuck

Confusing my reality, set me free

The cycle is just insane, but yet you’re my bane

I push you away, beg you to stay

I must except this reality, you’ll never let me be

Afraid what I’ll find, in my mind

The fog keeps me in denial, it makes me so vile

Continuing I cope, filled with hope

That one day I’ll be free, no longer a you and me©

by Mac

 

 

 

 

 

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Gone But Not

You are gone but not forgotten
Like a bad penny that keeps coming back
First you took and took from me
Now you just want to feel my heart crack

The journey through this life is hard
You would just ask for more than I can do
It’s not that I can’t handle the work
I just don’t want to give any more to you

You trick me with your little white lie
Tell me that you’ve left for good this time
But then with great triumphant zeal
Here you return and you, to make me mime

But I refuse to be your little puppet
Don’t want this life of mine lived on a string
You are gone for now and not missed
Depression, don’t want to be your play thing!

©Gone But Not by Mac (SBDMB)

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Hope Isn’t Lost

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I look into your face, see the love that you clearly have for me
Passionate, full of caring, concern and need are it’s bedfellows
You wish to nurture me, hold me down, ravish me with desires
But I am lost to you and I cannot be recovered in this lifetime

Pillaged and empty, my insides have dried up into a wasteland
No longer able to feel your warmth or taste the kindness there
Blowing unencumbered, like tumbleweeds on the arid planes
Searching for a destination yet always I long to know freedom

You ask if there was a time that I truly cared for you my love
I can tell you that I recall it’s face when I look into the sunrise
And when I listen to the sound of music dancing on the wind
But my heart can no longer feel the affection of days gone by

Life has jaded me and I am worn down by cares of this world
If you were to look into my soul you would see only a vacancy
I have become a shell of the man you once knew and adored
The fire is fading from your blue eyes, as slowly I siphon hope

Keep the fires burning, don’t let hope fade, your beacon falter
Returning to you like a boomerang does to the thrower’s hand
Like the way that a musician returns to the stage for last cheers
Everything and nothing, all is possible and yet utterly impossible

Hope Holds© by SBD (MM)

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